Okay so I went to a house party last night and drank and for the first time I actually didn’t wake up with any regrets. Not that I ever do anything ridiculously stupid.. well I sometimes do, but I usually just wake up and think of the little things that I find embarrassing about myself. I think recently I’m becoming more happy with who I am as a person and I have more confidence. I’m quite a loud person anyway, but I’ve never really had confidence in myself as a person and in terms of my appearance. Anyway, I’ve been pretty good recently. I’m obsessed with tomato toasties with spinach and a small amount of cheese at the minute. It’s the perfect lunch for when I’m in a rush!
That’s all for now I guess.. not much interesting I know, but I don’t do much these days.
It appears I am constantly working, Monday to Friday, so I have decided to cut out any exercise for the next few weeks. I have to travel to and from Manchester every day so I’m waking up at 7am then returning home around 9pm. I am in control of what I eat, however. On the way to work I have a smoothie prepared for my breakfast and I always make a pasta salad for on the way back.
The only thing I’m struggling with at the moment is how tired I’ve become. I’ve just had my first cup of green tea in over a week and It feels sooooooo good, so I think I may have to have a thermos full to take with me to keep me going. Can anyone offer me any advice to keep me going? I’d quit, but I need to work there when I return to uni. Plus it stops me from having time to spend. I get weekends to myself at least.
If there is anything I have noticed as Summer has drawn nearer is that I’m drinking a lot more alcohol. My friends are always calling me up to see if I want to go to the pub, and it’s reached the point where I’m consuming alcohol at least twice a week and my skin is just awful! I don’t want to let this ruin my summer, so I’m now being strict with myself and only drinking water with ice and lemon, and I’ll allow myself to consume alcohol once every two weeks.
On the bright side I’m no longer alone on this healthy journey. I now have a friend to help support me whenever I feel lazy and to motivate me. I think it’s easier if you have someone by your side to tell you that you can do it. I’m going to post a progress picture next week, although it’s not so different from my last, and then I won’t be posting any more until September. I want to have a lean body by the time I return to uni. I’m not going to let two months without pole dancing keep me from toning up my belly!